(3) THE IGNITER--THE CHILDHOOD LIGHTS!

Childhood Memories

The most profound memory of this energy began when I was a very small child of the age of four and five. I called them "the lights." I was extremely afraid to go to sleep at night because of their sporadic arrival, seemingly out of nowhere. The lights scared me more than the bumps and the demonic shadows in the room; a child's fear of this extremely powerful vibration. I could never predict when it would happen and this left me quite panic stricken. I began to have what doctors today would call 'panic attacks' due to this.

Often, I would close my eyes and abruptly I would feel this vibration coming around me. I could hear it as a buzzing and as it got closer, a non threatening vibration, but never the less a vibration of unknown feelings, it would begin to vibrate an amazingly strong energy around me and through me. (Pretend that you have stuck your finger in an electrical socket and it is similar to that feeling-though it was amazingly more powerful than a zap of electricity.)

It would pull me from my bed and swiftly send me into some type of darkness as if I was yanked up into the evening sky by a huge gust of wind. "The lights" would then arrive, white, diamond shaped and spinning at a velocity that seemed faster than the speed of light--so many of them. They would continue to surround me, vibrating through me with such an intensity that I have a difficult time articulating, even now as an adult.

The lights were able to talk to each other through this vibrational energy and they were filled with so much knowledge! Somehow I knew this and I could hear and absorb some of these things, though my childlike mind gathered nothing but tidbits. One particular piece of knowledge that I do remember bringing back with me was very unusual, to say the least. I woke up and ran out of my room, fearful and looking for comfort. I remember me continually saying in a fit of panic,

"The world keeps going over and over...the world keeps going over and over...you just die and keep coming back...over and over."

A strange thing to remember or even say as a child, especially a child indoctrinated into Catholicism. I was never taught to believe in reincarnation nor does the Bible speak of reincarnation--I was confused as a child about all of these things and nobody in the home with a true Christian background to help me--just fanatical ideals of not eating meat on Fridays makes you holy. These personal experiences as a little girl--they were so spiritually strong-and the knowledge that the white vibrating lights shared and spoke of to each other-I don't know what to believe because I am not quite sure what the lights were. Yes, the lights had more knowledge than all of us humans put together...I still don't know what these lights are...possibly universal collective knowledge of an amazing group of Angelic beings perhaps? I do not know the answer.

I recall constantly thinking about this as a child, fixated with questions that no one would believe a young child would be pondering. I was very frustrated by the thoughts of why we would go to work, have children, make a home, do all these things to just die, go back into the lights and then come back again. Now as an adult I believe that what I actually saw was the births of thousands of souls being born and thousands of other souls leaving. In my child's mind I can understand how I could have seen it as coming back 'over and over' but in actuality it was souls coming and going. WOW.

As a little girl, I gave so much thought about God, people, love and "the lights." I had so many questions and very little answers. I suppose that is why I have become a grownup with a very free-spirit, caring very little over the "boggles" of the world or preparing for the "bad what-ifs," that may come crashing down. I am and always have been more fascinated with spiritual learnings, love and God...especially love.

"The lights" eventually stopped arriving for me and for that, I was very thankful. I know that for whatever reason that they showed up for me as a child, they left a lasting impression on me...even when they disappeared. I often think about the lights as an adult, trying to make sense of them. Wishing I could feel it again. I realize now as an adult that I was only afraid because of the strangeness of the feelings, these vibrations of a zillion energies. The lights were not bad and had no intent on harming me or hurting me, nor did they.

Who knows the answers to these unseen forces that swirl around us on a daily basis. I don't have all of the answers and will never pretend that I do. I still have many, many questions about "this world that continually goes over and over and over."

What I do know without a doubt in my soul is that there is a reason for everything that happens in life, the good and the bad, even if we can't make sense of it at this moment. Jesus has showed me so many amazing things--and what I know without a doubt is that all the good and bad will eventually be turned into something rock on awesome to glorify God if you follow!

It is far better to go for the ride and see where God takes you. It is all about choices and allowing God to guide you and you not attempting to guide God. This world is just an amazing place of so many mysteries and I hope one day that I will have all the answers to all of my questions and of course, to know what "The lights" are and why they chose me.

Strangely, the lights were talked about by my Landlord's wife. This was something that I have never shared with strangers--only a handful of close friends--ever! I was asked to sit with the new landlord's wife and she was very 'inviting' and pointed over to a chair in her apartment for me to sit. You can imagine my surprise when she looked at me and said..."I was thinking of you today Ghost Whisper. Do you know that I had Angels visit me when I was a little child also?" I felt the hair stand up on my neck and arms when she said it...how creepy is that?....how does she know this?

Throughout my childhood the 'lights' were the ONLY visitation that I can say to you clearly and strongly were NOT demons. So they were Angels? Now wait a minute...I am sitting here with the wife of a Nazi deemed the worst and she ain't good in her heart--and she knows these things about me and the lights? How? And I don't think she had Angels visit her because I know she is calling up satan and his minions on me--and preforming things in her apartment that would make the normal man shudder--so were the lights that visited me bad and I didn't know it? NO.

If she did in fact have Angels visit her--why isn't she good and her heart after God and Jesus? Why isn't she doing God's work instead of harboring a murderer eugenicist and war criminal who killed God's chosen people so ruthlessly?.....awwwww....it is all just the strangest things I have ever seen and heard in my life and truly--I laugh as I say this out loud--I am of a sound mind..but without the answers to my GOD questions; being answered by a true strong Christian or God--I will struggle. I continue learning the Bible and God is answering many of my questions! I have felt God's whispers warning me to be very careful whom I learn from...and that I am.

And to a potential 'mate' who told me that I should read 'this other book' ...and I kindly said no thank you...I would prefer to stick to just the Bible and Jesus has warned me to be careful". You became irate and I said "I am sorry but I will put Jesus's instructions before yours." The devil got mad--You were so mean and ruthless-and you said to me "Look at me Ghost whisper-look at what I have-I have a beautiful house-I have a good job-I have a great life--you have nothing-no home-no job-you bare no good fruit--you have no fruit."

I just want you to know that the devil is a liar and I want you to watch and see what type of fruit I have and what Jesus will do through me. I also know this much....Jesus would never say such things to suffering or broken spirited people, homeless people, struggling people. I can never even imagine my heart ever feeling that way nor my lips saying those horrible things to anyone--especially the poor and needy...the homeless...the broken. I would choose death before I would say such arrogant and hateful things to another human being. You my friend have no fruit to brag about--you are the one who is barren and blind. May God have mercy on you for who you are being deceived by...but too spiritually arrogant to see that this is darkness. Maybe you will see it now and change...?

I can not wait to do the Lord's work! My tree is very ripe and full and I am quite ready to bear the awesome fruit of God~The true God tells me I will and I believe! He just doesn't tell me when!)

If you have been cut away from me--it is because your TALK does not match your WALK! That is not God--that is grandstanding--pretending--POSERS!! (YUP..YOU TOO! wink wink) I have had enough of grand-standers-fake Christians-fake Ministers--fake Pastors--fake Priests--liars and pretenders to last a life time. You don't fool me no matter what you proclaim about your heart. I have seen your hardened hearts and they are dark. I need to stay in the "Light" and not make fellowship with you. I wish you the best with truth but words to the wise--"You can't fool me and you most certainly you can't fool God."

"Thou who proclaimth--proclaimth too much."

THE IGNITER-Nazi's hidden among us

I am writing a 'series' on my true story " IGNITER" Nazi's hidden among us.

Many of you who are reading this HUB may be quite confused-this is why I have numbered the stories on my HUBS front page profile. Start from the beginning and read chapter to chapter. It will allow you an understanding-a basic foundation of me-my life-my spiritual experiences-God--demons--the devil-which will allow you to grasp the full profound meaning of my story and how all of this happened--and most importantly you will see the power of Jesus and God the Father!

Due to many, many things involved in this story, Politics-corruption-Nazi's and of course ...good versus evil...you will see my series in many categories. I am not quite sure where to put them due to so many variants. I will scatter them as if they are leaves on a windy day-hoping that the very lucky will get a chance to view "History in the making" and above all..to witness God's justice...prophetic and a warning to all who have not called upon Jesus as Messiah.

May God bless you!